i was feeling uneasy because there has been a public reunion of memebers of a white supremacist group called save europe or something where i live, in the end they barely managed to reunite 50 people, and there was an antifascist concentration of hundreds of people nearby so i'm quite happy, it's very reassuring to see people being physically there to make the statement and make it clear that they care. I hope these current times pass soon.

IT'S RAINING WOOO <3333 CXXXXX

a true brainfart was about to be expelled from my mind but i didn't catch it so now i don't know what stupid thing i wanted to write here, maybe some bliblbib blehnlehbleh sopa sopa sopa something like that but with more consistency

the girl on the bakery section is so nice and pretty Cx today i forgotto make a sandwich before leaving my house so i bought a small one there and i got to exchange a couple of words with her thank you god for this amazing opportunity

i'd like to note too that i no longer feel like i can't walk when coming back home, and that i enjoy talking and joking with my coworkers, or meeting the smiles and nice comments from customers, and that i love it when old women start making conversation while i'm scanning their products, being in front of people and talking to them makes me feel a bit better, it feels like we are not so filled of hatred as we are with ignorance.

i'm feeling salty about the design of some of my pages

why am i feeling like that again i'm sorry for not doing anything i'll ry finishing this i promise

i was looking at a picture of myself and my finger wouldn't stop trembling near it like a dog which made me feel funny

also that probably happened because i'm hungry and lying down

i'm not reaching 50kg this summer either huh

working during evenings is terrible it's not even evenings it's the whole day wtf T_T

-inserte pou triste-

codeberg is for mostly public repos so i'll be using github until i learn to self host other laternatives orr find an alternative u_u

if you know any tell me pls

let me check this... the htmls get an M, for the main i suppose?
so a new file should get the U and the + option to stage it righttt hmmmph no + thigy for this image despite having a green u >:p

welp it works on the terminal so no problem maybee i need an extension? i'll look it up later

ohh looking back at the image i just had to get on source control!! bjaksj

oh also i forgot to add that i'm devastated because i missed html day AGAIN i'm such a stupid forgetful nigga ;_;

i was too lazy to upload my entire site to neocities (i can't simply select everything because i have a ton of directories and apparently these aren't uploaded directly) and i don't want to put everything there and switch to it's code editor everytime i want to write on my diary, my microblog, and such, soo i'm reading petrapixel's guide on something about git repositories to be able to edit everything here and then stage and commit and other things :^ (there's now a green line next to the edited stuff, so exciting)

So today i have a free day, it's a shame i will spend it with this terrible headache, i suppose this is my body's revenge for eating like a pig and barely exersicing.

i can't keep coming back home feeling like this oh god what's the use of a an eight hour shift if you have to later come back feeling so tired,,,it's not only tiredness, my hips hurt, my thighs hurt, my knees hurt and my feet hurt too, i'm really warm and my head hurts, owmmm i'm so sad, wish my boss didn't ask me to do an extra shift next monday, i can't refuse now but oh my godddd i'm dreading a bit the feeling i'll get once i find myself there, i'm so sad. i don't want to go to sleep either i need to do things, to feel like i'm not loosing my day but i'm not doing anything. and this will only las a month!? How does one endure this when the reward isn't even the full amount of the money you get paid considering most of it goes to food and rent and such... my parents have it so rough and i've never had proper idea, i wish i could do something about the whole thing :c

(edited 10/08/2026-22:26): oww poor past di it's all right!! i did not feel bad or anything! :u

working is not as easy as i thought,,, it would definetly help if my body wasn't this embarassingly deficient sack of dead meat i'm fated to carry around.

i feel so blue again and lonely even though i'm not. Well not entirely..... i don't know what to do, so i came here to write a bit but it's not like i have anything particularly new to complain about. I don't even know what has me like this i was feeling so funny during the morning

ohmmm i feel a bit blue againmmmm

okay maybe i'm being a bit harsh because i'm mad and tired but i'm soo exhausted, my head hurts a lot but i get a bit like anxious or restless at night because between the heat and the fact that i don't know when that stupid bastard i have the disgrace to be blood related to will come back home i feel soo bad, i just know i won't be able to sleep if he comes back while i'm awake because i hate every sound he makes and every light he turns on i can't believe someone can make me feel this phyisically ill, i would have never believed it if someone told me i would grow up to feel this saddened and enraged by someone's mere existence but ohh my god i can't do anything besides hurting myself and crying until exhaustion at night im so so tired but it's not like i have enough money to leave.

im getting ñazy lazy very lazy indeed ohh but ar least i'm free now becs u e ewww because at least f inished my test anddd i csn assure yiu that was no t diharrea thjis thime justy a,azing uh amazing anhting that isn't ugly bodily discartge

my feet hurt and i didn't study for tomorrow's exam

ouch today i'm feeling soo so bad and i'm also really hungry but i don't want to make anything,, and i'm also so drowsy i should go to sleep earlier right now i don't want to go back to sleep because i'll cry

ahghghgg lately i have been getting hungry more frequently, i wonder iffff i have something. or if it's the heat or if it just happens because i don't spend as much time in places where i'm aware i can't eat.

my mom says i'll get fat

i feel so uncomfortable yet i don't have anywhere to go and no way to fix issues i have done nothing to bring upon myself or those i love, for how much will this go on? i want to go back and as i mention this i don't even understand what i mean with it or what is truly a good moment, i can't say with confidence anything is good in this world because there's always someone having it worse. Is it too much to not want that? is it perfect, truly? i know i'm having a better life than tons of people but i can't help it but feel bad, i still forget and i still believe the world is mine

the last test turned out horribly but i'm not surprised i barely studied yesterday and everything was SELECt exercises when the teacher mentioned that there wouldn't be many of these.

i had to make up smething named COUNT() and now i'm scared of checking if such a thing exists,,,,, and i don't understand how like 5 of 4 exercises worth a point involved counting something ARGHHGH

and it was also really really cold my nipples were so hard it made me feel uncomfortable like when i was kid and the idea of feeling my own chest made me feel inadequate

well i'm still happy because until my teacher corrects that dogshit i puked all over the exam i can totally pretend i have finished everything.

i'm so so tired and exhasperated, it's just my first year in college so i assume it can only get worse but why why why must my college drag on the classes so much????????? literally every other college has already finished, i don't understand what makes us so special to work for an extra month aughhhhhh

bombardeen francia papus pape you will not be forgiven

i feel so nervous during Senegal vs France's match because uhhh i guess there's something special about it being against them you know, it doesn't essentially mean anything yet i'd love to see people celebrate that specific victory.

IT'S ONLY BEEN 11 MINUTES aghhh i want to disctract myself
at least it's somewhat fun to feel excited i suppose

Today i learnt that the reasong why the L goes first may be because during the AIDS epidemic a lot of lesbians helped gay men who had the disease but didn't get help from their families and it made my day i don't know why but now i can't stop smiling hehe,

of course the whole situation is awful, i can't believe what having your own family kick you out like that in disgust might feel like, but i'm glad the order of the letters makes us remember that act of solidarity and union

oh my god i'm not thinking anything am i

hmmm fandoms are so boring.... it's likee unless you go for the most obscure media you can find they all are the same thing with a different costume, the same memes being redrawn and characters being reduced to the same tropes or terms and jokes that are essentially something that has been said a thousand times yesterday andd i guess social media plays a lot on that... reddit is more fun though, yes. there's probably other places but i'm too stupid to find them maybe later or some other day i'll try to find something

i wish i could be slightly more consistent i can't really define who i am to myself or at least who i want to be iiiiii wish i could be more ee eeeee more genuine maybe

ahhh okay maybe maybee maybe this has to do with how much steryotypes affected my behaviour as a kid, i want to be a human being, a person, a something alive that has the luck to be able to think and imagine.

But deep inside i am a bit shaped by the way different aspects of my life affected the way i saw myself in comparison to other people, such as being born a woman, being not only black but african, being the daughter of immigrants, andd uh i don't know if i can count myself as queer but i'm definetly not straight, so there was also that added thing

(yes yes i am the ultimate woke character for my irl friends who are a bit annoying but whatever)

all these aspects of my life which i have been more or less hyperaware of have forced me to act in opposition of what would sort of be expected from me, this was a huuuuge headache because as a 7 year old i wanted to be strong and dirty and messy because that's the opposite of what a girl is BUTTT I WAS BLACKKK so i also wanted to act quiet and soft and feminine too because well othewise you are a nigga. Luckily rampant bullying turned me into a rather quiet and super shy person so in the end i didn't choose between two fake personalities.

Ok i'm just getting lazy now

i have a lot of things to study and a couple to submit before monday but the power of sweet things makes me feel like i've finished my grade or course or whatever they call the school year in english

Mayyyyy gouuuuf i',m so hunfry

ohh are yous eing this, isn't this page super mega cute whaaaaahhh this is crazy now i can write shit here
it can be scrolled through, people can press a couple of buttons n everything OMGGGG NEOCITIES IS SOOO COOOOLLL
this is tooo beautiful to be true i'm so glad i heard about the indie web and that i was able to actually code a page i mean i've been doing the other pages too but this one is so like cartoony or decorated or themed i don't know but i love itttt

my precious little page it even has an ad for labon to scam people beyond his dimension sigh

Dirk Strider is the post-scratch incarnation of Dave Strider's adopted Bro and ectobiological father. Prior to his proper introduction to the reader, he is referred to by Jane Crocker as D. Strider, and affectionately by Roxy Lalonde as di-stri. His chumhandle is timaeusTestified (TT), matching the initials of his daughter Rose Lalonde's handle.

this was a test also how i would have loved to see a nice and interesting conversation between Rose and Dirk.